Tuesday, January 10, 2017

I Hate That I Love You

I've been dealing with an uncomfortable truth for the last few years. It's one I didn't really start analyzing until about five or so years ago. And now as the next administration readies to take control of our seat of government, I have had to face this truth head on.

I grew up with a father who was an immigrant. He LOVED this country. He was not oblivious to it's flaws, nor of the history of it's oppression of people of color. However, he ALWAYS asserted that he could not have made the life for himself and his family that he made had he not come to the US. He was dedicated to doing his civic duty and encouraged all his children to participate in the process. He taught us that you vote. you go to jury duty. You engage the system and make it work for you

His influence combined with my love of history, encouraged and enabled me to learn so much about America. The good, bad, and horrible. And they both have brought me to this place of duality in which I find myself. It is a place where I, a 43 yr old woman who is acutely aware of the oppressive and problematic nature of this nation of my birth, must admit that the reason I fight so hard for freedom, justice, and equality is not only because it is what we all deserve as human beings, and not just because people of color and black people have always been denied it here, but also because deep down I love this country and would like for it to reflect the best parts of it's written creed and it's highest ideals. But mostly, I want it to be worthy of the love my father gave it from the moment he came to these shores to his last breath.

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